Things are being pretty messed up, don't you think?
Its been 2 days and I still missing you. It feels like yesterday, we were holding hands, laughing to each other, and shared our story.
But right now, we are back to our 'life'. Me and you, and our six degrees of separation.
I still remember, the very first time I arrived at the place you're staying with our friends, you actually wants to say hello to me or the worst part, hugging me. I knew that, we miss each other. But how is it worst when you just want to hug me? Its because, We're just a friend.
I don't believe that friendzone are exist, there's just this wall you can't climb over. Both of us wants to get through it but don't know how to make a step.
You suddenly ask for random things just to hear my voice talking to you. I know that, it won't be easy for both of us to actually being honest.
When I go out, you followed me. You wanted to be with me but its just hard for us to be together, right? I wonder why.
For us, taking a photo isn't really important. First of all, we'll be embarassed to each other. Its like, why are we doing this? :')
Of all the things we had yesterday, the only thing I realized is that you always taking care and looking for me. When we're in the mountain, you'll look at me and smiling at me, telling me I shouldn't give up. Do inhale and exhale just like he did. I remember, I look at him and smiling. I realized that, he can give me the whole world just for being himself. You holding my hands and always taking care at me. And yes, you showed me how you actually jealous. You always looking at me when I'm talking with someone else or be with someone else, you don't actually say it but your eyes are telling me that you're being so jealous, you wanted to be the person I can carry on and talking so cutely.
And when I said that your hair is getting so long, it feels like I want to cut it, you actually tied it up. You hear everything that I said, you look at me and you hold my hands so gently. That day, I won't let go of your hands. Not even once.
You're always looking at me and trying to cheer me up. I knew for sure, dear... we really miss each other that words can't even describe. But, what are we going to do? We're just friends, aren't we?
I know that you have someone you like and you know I have someone I like. We're just pretending to run away from our feelings. Even when I say for a thousand times, I finally moving on, I'll always going back to you. Even when you already have someone you like, I'll always wishing for our happiness.
I always have you in my prayer.
If we can't be together then... I will wish for our happiness.
If we meant to be together, I hope that we can climb this wall and be free.
Not just a friend, we'll be a partner in both love and life.
I love you,
I hope that we can be together. At least, trying to be honest to each other.
