prop my honesty

hello I miss you see. though you're not smiling but I'm very happy. but ....... now what?
I really hate you. too often you hurt me just because you're really embarrassed. embarrassed for what? and with whom you ashamed? prestige? I think that you're the man who was not consistent. you insult me but what do I do? I just stopped and my heart? destroyed! why? because I love you no matter how you hate me, hurt as much as anything you insult me, be patient I just be patient maybe you're angry and you suddenly exploded. I know this was so far back you never see. I just wait and keep praying for you after all, patience is one way to remove the anger.
now............... too hard now I receive you back again I'm not angry with you just hate it still remains. too sick!! if you feel what I feel what if you're quiet and patient and just moaning? I guess you can never think about it. just because you were shy and very angry workers.
but you know I really like your attitude is very funny and always makes me laugh and very mischievous.
but I remember you hurt me sad. and now you really want to be with me. I kept berifikir that if you can continue to make me laugh? you selfish! and I am a very patient person.
I have to keep thinking to find answers because you really only can make me pounding like a girl who was in love like that. I think
and like that too I love you. I love you so much!