I love you Bro!

I'm so in broken situation.
Its not my heart, or my head, but the whole of my life.
Allah had gaves me happiness and I'm so blessed. Deep inside, I'm so thankful.
Despite having a very blessed life, my brother got sick and we don't know how to stop crying when he fell asleep with his tears, wishing that all the things that had happened with him is just a dreams.
My precious brother who had been strong for few months wanted to get rid of his own pain, I wish nothing but your own happiness, its been fair for you now, having the best relationship with the one you love and God.
You had it all, but the only things that you didn't have right now is how to find strengths to hold back your pain. Everytime I see you crying, there's a chaos in my heart, more and more when I saw mommy and daddy just sit there watching you crying, didn't know what to do just want to switch their positions to be you so you wouldn't felt like you want to die.
Having you as the only man that I can be angry and love at the same times is what people called as siblings.
Brother, I love you.
Stay strong dude, you always taught me how to be strong, you protect me and gives me your best when it comes to being best brother.

Love you dude, get healthy soon. get well very soon, get back to your old-self soon. You need to find love forever, not just stay crying to hold up your pain. You don't deserves it, you're an amazing guy.

xx.