That clouds inside my heart.

So from the title above, you could say that I'm so confused right now.
Well, not really confused tho, I've been talking about love hundreds of time here, you can't even count it with your hand smh. BUT PLEASE, for this time, I just need to talk about it.
And btw......
What I want to tell you is about something weird, weirder, WEIRDEST had happened to me. I'M JUST IN LOVE....... well, its an old story tho, if I told you that I'm in love.
this time, it feels so freaking real.
I guess, I'm in love with my classmate. CLASSMATE. CLASS FUCKING MATE!!! HOLY FUCKING SHIT, I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE IT.
I'm reallllllllllllllllly used to see him EVERY FREAKING DAY, I just realized it now, that I'm always admiring him, I know him since Junior High School.
So yeah, you can tell that I've been friend with him since 6 years ago and just realizing it now.
I'm so close with him recently, really are close.
Since that day, he's always in my heart.
He's been my savior on every problems I had, in bad, happy and sad mood, he's always beside me. I can't even realized how much that 'so dear' smile he had given to me, I'm used to laugh out loud beside him, I'm used to cry, to smile, even to hug, I'm always remaining beside him.
THAT DAY, I mean, when I had fights with my classmate, a boy, yes a boy, let's call him chicken, he slap me and say so much bullshits about me, then HIM, yes, my favorite guy in my heart currently, stands up for me and scolded that chicken for me, it was super sweet, I'm crying a river that day, I don't know that he's the one who's saving me, at least making my heart so relieved, so after that incident, I'm in the school's office, I talked with that chicken and his precious gf for almost two hours, when I came down-stairs, I saw him smiling to me, and his eyes is so warm. it feels like i just want to hug him, and cry again.
After that day, I felt that butterfly in my tummy, its cool to know that he's been my savior since that day and after all this time.
That's the first time.
The second time is when he's being my couple in our yearbook photoshoot, well, not literally my couple, but accidentally. YES, accidentally, that time, I don't have any special feelings for him, not love, but only the special one.
So yeah, my previous couple before him, is his bestfriend, when I'm waiting for my friend to go with me, in the Parking Lot, I've had conversations with him, I told him that my couple might not like our outfits, because its Pink, sure, my couple would not love the outfits, and he told me that he want to be my couple, the reason is he loved pink, and I said, well, if my couple wanted to.
Well well, we came to match our outfits, apparently my couple is a bit big, so the outfits won't match with him, so I'm being his couple eventually. YEAAAAAAAAAAY<33 p="">I had lots lots and LOTSSSAA fun time together with him, he's really care towards me, the reason I might fall in love with him is not how cute his face is, but how cute and warm actions he had given to me.
He's really tall, and so hug-able, the moment I saw him, I just want to hug him and lying on his arms.
After we had our photoshoot, I was going with my friends to buy some foods for the photographer that has been with us through all-day with so many incidents (which I'll not tell here), so, we've waiting for the foods for almost an hour, when we're going back, I was walking alone because the high-heels I wore that day (and yes, my feet is almost ripped off T_T)
my friends left me because I was walking like a turtle, I'm walking behind like a grandma and then he's coming by with motorcycle, and he said: "Hi, so how's it? come behind me" I don't care how fluttering my heart is, I'm so tired and super sleepy, I just need rest. It's naturally going like thatT_T
and then the next day, is when we have our 2nd photoshoot, I'm riding the motorcycle with him, I hug him so tight because I'm afraid I'll fall (and because I love him, I just want to feel how warm his body when I hug him)
VOILAAAA, that's it.
I'm so in love with him, and I want him to beside me forever.....
[p.s today, he just made me embarassed lol. wtf, i'm feeling super shy. K bye]